Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Christmas was alright. But i was feeling pretty moody in the early xmas morning. I kept thinking bout last year, whereby xmas was spent in New Zealand instead. However, last year, i very much wanted to spend xmas and my birthday with him. I recall how much i've missed him but yet, when i came back to s'pore, i didn't know how to express how much i missed him over the two week holiday. That's one stupid mistake i made.
Lately, it dawned on me that i still feel something for him despite dating another two guys after our breakup. I'm not saying that those two guys were subsitutes. But its just that, i did not love them deep enough. It was always to a certain extent, and chemistry died really fast. And somehow, i didn't think they understood me enough. They were always expecting things from me. However, i did fall head over heels for him. I loved him for everything he is despite his flaws. Its like i know him inside out. Even now, small little things can jolt me back to those sweet memories of him.
Many have said that we look good together, and my besties are all hoping that there might be a good chance that we'll get back together. I am hoping that a miracle like that will happen this christmas season but i can't deny the fact that the distance and time may be too much to handle especially with him having a major exam next year. I want the best for him. And isn't christmas all about giving?
I still thank God for a wonderful christmas. I like talking to him again. And as much as i want to see him again, i know i shouldn't, cause i know i might fall for him. But im still happy that we're on talking terms. =D
Hee, even though it was a moody christmas morning, my mood improved in the presence of family and friends. Went over to isabel's place as usual for our xmas gathering. Presents were kinda little cos sadly, people prefer to give money instead of presents. =( But its alright, money's good too. =D Got a liverpool calendar and earrings from Isabel as birthday and xmas presents. =D Thanks babe. Haha. I think im getting late presents this year.
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Hehe. Its so nice that Christine's finally 18! Now she can buy alcohol for us legally! =D Hee, she bought Hooters for us to share. And heres Isabel lecturing Alyssia on why she shouldn't drink alcohol. Haha.
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Hee. Nithya and i here! Haha. After eating and all, just spent the night in Isabel's room with everyone. Was really nice, just having girl talk. LOL! The guys were just listening patiently to what we've got to say. Then just got into this huge soft toy fight, throwing soft toys at each other. Haha. Was actually pretty fun. Everyone kept screaming and we all felt like children again, not caring about the world or the problems, just screaming and having fun. Haha. I love it. Been so long since ive screamed or let every emotion that ive bottled up inside all out. It feels so good to scream. Haha. Soft toy fights are fun. Hee =D
Anyway, it has been a great day! Going out with Sharon, Isabel and Nithya tomorrow. The girls wana celebrate my birthday in advance. =D Hee, can't wait to try out liquid kitchen.
Labels: Childhood Friends, Christmas, Him, Presents, Soft toy fight
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